I keep hoping the holiday season will calm down but it doesn’t. On top of a rash of dr’s appointments for me (plus Victors), all scheduled around the same time, plus Victor’s bird day, plus travel up to NY for Christmas, plus our own Yule celebrations… things just seem so rush rush rush!
I’ve still got one minor detail to finish on a present, and another present that we need to do something to, and then at least the presents are done for this weekend (well, 3 more to wrap, one to pick up on the way and one to pick up once we’re in NY but…). I haven’t wrapped anything for our own Yule next weekend, but I’ll have all week to do that.
I just finished one (of the 3 unwrapped), though, so it’s nice to make some progress. I’ll take pictures of everything I’ve made, once the gifts are given.
I’m pretty excited to see everyone; to introduce some to Victor (who haven’t met him in person); to show off my boys to everyone; to feel more of that family thing you do when you’re surrounded by those from far away. I wish I could say ‘to not feel the lack of my own’ but it’s unfortunately always more present when I’m surrounded. I deal, though, and take quiet time when I need it. Ken empathises, though no one truly understands.  I’m ok with that, for the most part. I suppose I wouldn’t really want anyone to understand, given the choice.  I have my boys to cuddle when I need to, and they’re an awefully wonderful balm.
December 13th, 2007 at 3:41 am
A big hug from across the border
I know the holidays can be difficult – everyone is expected to be happy and festive and you feel guilty if you’re not. The season is usually stressful for me – $, presents, travel etc and I often need alone time to remind me of the religious side of the season. It’s good to be around others but that closeness can also remind you of those who are no longer with us.
On a side note, do you do anything special to observe winter solstice?